Adulting is hard.

Orang kata adulting is hard.

Selalu rasa hard tu sebab kerja je. Tapi harini, for once and for all, rasa super hard sebab baru sedar 'Saya rindu kawan kawan saya'. I've missed my escape button so much. Like today, i feel like i needed to go for a karaoke session with my girl friends. But i couldn't. Cause everyone was super busy today and my schedule was super tight as well.

Adulting is hard.

I had a conversation with one of my bosses yesterday before i went home.

We were discussing on the upcoming trainings that we're gonna be having when she decided to initiate the talk.

"What's you aspiration, Nina?" She asked me.

Then she added "What do you really want to do?".

I gave her a long silence.

I guess i was astonished by the questions because no one really talks about aspiration these days. In this rat-raced era, people are more comfortable of doing their own job, the same one over and over again which sometimes looks like everyone was programmed to do those works. Monotononously. And they are more comfortable of minding their own business rather than sharing about their aspirations. Just like how i had mine before i get the questions.

"I want to learn. As many things as i can while i am still in this company." I answered.

"Okay...Could you elaborate more on that?" She asked again.

"I mean, i don't like the current process of what i am doing now." I gave her a pause.

"But in order for me to be at a certain level of where i want myself to be...i need to learn from the ground. I need to understand the whole process of how this thing is going to work from the scratch."

She nodded at my answer. Probably she was satisfied with it because she did not ask any further.

What am i going to do next? That is not certain.

The question is, do you want to see yourself in the same position in another five or ten years time? Or you are looking at expanding your knowledge, building your career, extending your networking and growing yourself bigger in the future?

Questions over questions.

The other day Li Jin shared these words of wisdom with me, "Be a big fish in the big pond" So i'm gonna share it here so that everyone else will get the message as well.

A little update on life.

Hana has just got married about two weeks ago. 

Rasa macam baru semalam saya tulis 'Hana is engaged...', tiba-tiba harini, Hana dah dua minggu kahwin. It feels like a dream. That went by like just in a puff. Or even maybe like a blink of an eye.

I told myself that it is okay, that my friend is entering a new phase of life, that she will still be there when i need her support. Like how she did a few days ago. To be there and give me her moral support and comforting words. Not only Hana but Hayatul and Jana as well. And other friends who have changed their title. From Miss to Missus. That this feeling shall pass.

I want to believe that Allah will grant me a greater gift, a long-lasting friendship just like Pak Nik's family and ours. That won't stop until everyone gets married only but it will be a beginning to a long-lasting friendship insyaAllah.

Hana's wedding reception: Babad's side.

Yang sendu today but tomorrow will be okay,

Nina :')