Of running - run for your life.

 You know how running is part of your patient learning process. It's when you want to stop but you have aimed for a certain distances and you are tired but you still have a few kilometers to complete. Running isn't only about keeping you fit. It is also about keeping your emotion in control. You are taught on how to breathe deeply and exhale fully every time you are pushing yourself for a run. Because if you don't do that, your legs will get cramped. It plays part with the whole body.

I had not been running for quite sometimes until this Monday morning, when i realized i actually needed one. Not just an exercise like cycling or walking, i needed to run. I needed to pull out my energy. I was mentally exhausted the night before. Had a panic attack while i was driving at Kampung Baru because of how packed and how heavy the traffic was. It has been awhile since i last drove myself to the area and when i finally got there, i couldn't even control myself from bursting into tears. Right in the middle of Kampung Baru and right in the middle of the heavy traffic. It was terrible.

But for some reasons, running had me in control of my emotions. I wasn't immediately recovered but at least, that's the least that i could do to keep my mind at ease. Because when i run, my main focus was on the finishing line and how do i control my breathing. This morning, when i went out for a run again, i realized that how much had i missed running at the park nearby my house and joining fun run in the middle of the city. Everything that is pre-pandemic is missed but everything post-pandemic is what to look forward to.