Facing Our Biggest Fears

 

“Kakak, I’m going to work.” Kak Cik, my younger sister said.

It’s the third day of Ramadhan and her off days are finally over.

“Okay, do you want me to send you to the train station?” I ask.

“It’s okay, I’ll be driving Ummi’s car.”

And then she’s off for work.

 

I remember how about 3 years ago; she was so fearful about driving a car on her own. She even had to be forced to drive all the way to IIUM by Abangah to build her courage in driving. Nothing can beat that particular fear at that point of time. Kak Cik and car; are a bad combination.

 

And today when she said that to me. It made me realize that my sister is not that small anymore. She has grown up to become a better version of herself. Of being able to drive on her own. Of being able to face what used to be one of her biggest fears. Kak cik can finally drive. On her own. Without anyone in the car. Next to her side.

 

And honestly, it made me ponder my life. What were once used to be my biggest fears in life, that I have now managed to overcome?

 

I used to be so afraid of leaving my 9-5 job, afraid of losing job security and lifestyle comfortability but now, I am living the life that I was praying for. A study to pursue, freelance jobs that give me more time of my own, to be able to have more time with my family, and most importantly, the feeling of contentment. We are blessed. And we tend to forget.

 

We are blessed that we managed to face one of our biggest fears.

We are blessed that we knew when to step out of our comfort zones.

We are blessed that we were able to start when things get rough.

 

Beggars can’t be choosy. Beggars gotta work their asses off. For life to complete.

Beggars gotta face their own fears.

And we are the beggars.

Of our own world.